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Thursday, February 25, 2010 { 12:48 AM }

Shifted.
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010 { 12:51 PM }

Someone said the pain would go away someday, but I’m not sure that’s where I want it to go.
Because I know, nothing ever really just disappears.
Things don’t go away, they just bury themselves.
They hide away. They become engrained on the walls of our hearts.
And without the pain, it’s just me.
It’s just my anger and my heartache. And that never goes away.
But you do, you did. And I can’t do anything about it.
Although we’re still friends. But the distance is tearing me apart.
And that’s the hardest part, is that I can’t do anything about it even though I know I want to,
and I know I would if I could, but I can’t.

I can still remember the first time we met.
The way I feel when I went to look for you when I came back from Jakarta.
The way you tugged my arms when we walked down the streets.
The times we kissed, on the cheek, the mouth, on our foreheads.
The way we walked home together looking up the skies, star gazing.
The way we watched movies when we’re having stayovers.
The way we bickered.
The way you introduced me to your friends.
The way we could talk for hours under your void deck.
The way we watched videos via facebook.
The way we snuggled on bed.
The way we made out.
The way we used to text each other like there’s no tomorrow.
The way we have to part when I’m at your house.
The way we used to say ‘Message me!’, ‘No, you message me first!’ when we part.
The way we walked home from causeway point.
The way you surprised me at my window.
The way you said you can’t possibly don’t want me.
The way you smile when I said you’re beautiful.
The way you called me ‘b’.
The way you bit me.
The way we wrestled in your room.
The way you stroked my hair.
The way you smiled so happily to me.
The way we hugged and never want to let go.
The way you called and told me you missed my voice.
The way you said ‘I love you’.
The way we chatted on MSN.
The way you expressed your love.
The way we would message each other goodnights.
The way you said my eyes were beautiful.
The way you did manicures when we’re watching shows.
The way you always wanted me to ‘itchy itchy’ you to sleep.
The way we planned for our future.
The way we quarrel and made up.
The way we sing duets at kbox.

And the list goes on. I can never forget that feeling, never. Will you forget about it?
If you realised, everything’s in past tense.
I’m no longer yours, so what right do I have to stop you from doing certain things?

I just want you to know, that I’ve been fighting to let you go.
With this glimpse of hope, baby you’ll come back to me.
C, you meant this much to me.

Monday, February 08, 2010 { 3:50 PM }

It's the time of the day again.

If only someone could program my life,
my feelings, my thinking, my actions.
I wouldn't have so much problem coping everything myself now.

Seriously, seriously?
Someone please, shoot me in the heart.

Valentine's coming. Will you be my valentine?

Friday, February 05, 2010 { 9:57 AM }

I wish I was stronger.
Strong enough to resist the temptation.

It's only been 3 months. It's either you really loved that person, or you're just a sucker for love.
I guess being in a relationship, time doesn't matter.
It's about the things that you've been through which makes the bond stronger.
But when either one chooses to give up, everything came crashing down.
It's a pity, it's a shame. But as long as the other party's happy, nothing else matters right?

It's easier said than done. Time may heal it all, but how long does it take?
It kinda suck when you listened to sad love songs when you're in love, it doesn't affect you at all.
But when you're out of love, everything made sense to you.
Sometimes I wish that you would pay more attention to the songs I sing,
because the lyrics they sang, are exactly what I'm feeling.

In any ways, I hope things get better.
Because lately, I'm not who I used to be.
Lastly, I love you.

Wednesday, February 03, 2010 { 10:38 AM }

原来自暴自弃的是自己。
你快乐吗?

{ 10:29 AM }

What happens when someone gives up hope for everything?
Words left unsaid, stories left untold, feelings never got to know.

I'm getting sick tired of all these.
Playing hide and seek, peek-a-boo, chasing and running.

Today's just not my day.
I guess everyday ain't my day.
Ever since you left.
Just wonder, if you'll ever ever read this hidden text.
Because, I hope you do. For the subsequent posts, there'll be this special part for you.

Saturday, January 30, 2010 { 1:19 PM }

okay i screwed up my blog. LOL.
lazy to do the template.

{ 11:29 AM }

It's only a few days past our 3rd month.
It's only a few days since you told me you love me very much.
It's only a few days since we confirmed our Bintan trip.
It's only a few days since we last hugged and kissed.
It's only a few days since you last said 'I love you.'
It's only a few days since you said I'll be in your heart forever ever.
It's only a few months since we got together.
It's only a few months since we said to last long.
It's only a few months and now we're over.

It's my bad. For all those things I've said.
Just didn't know things would turn out this bad.
Nothing will change anything I guess.
Sigh.

Somehow, there's only one song keep replaying in my head.
'怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢'

Remember we used to promise each other to be good friends even if we parted?
I'm waiting for your reply. (: If you ever read this.

And just so you know, I still love you just as much as before.

{ 12:15 AM }

Friday, January 29, 2010 { 3:16 PM }

How do I breathe without you here by my side?
How will I see when your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me, how do I breathe?

{ 9:23 AM }

If you hide, I'll seek for you.
If you're lost, I'll search for you.
If you leave, I'll wait for you.
If they try to take you away from me, I'll fight for you.
Cause I never want to lose you.

You meant everything to me now.
I'm sure you know what I'm gonna do.